Seeing the future.

I wish I were psychic.  Plain and simple it would solve a lot of my problems.  However we spent our bible study time talking about us trying to play god.  It was what Eve essentially was trying to do, know it all, good and bad.  I like to blame my girl Eve for a lot because it is easy and really all her fault, haha.  Yet I can see myself trying her game ALL the time.  Lord if I just knew about this situation, if I just knew where I was supposed to live next year, if I just knew what next Friday was going to look like, or what time this person was going to call.  The truth is every time I want to see into the future I am in turn trying to be god.  He knows what is going to hurt me and what is going to help me and the exact moment for each.    

All I can do is be thankful with whatever circumstances I am in.  Right now that requires CONSTANT reminding that I should be thankful for the uncertainty of next year, the city is up in the air, the job is up in the air, the friends up in the air, church, oh my could my terrified type A planner self list goes on and on.  That also means that I get to be thankful for the other side of where I am now.  Great friends!  Great church! Great roomie!  oh yea and my favorite... leaving on a plane this afternoon with two of my besties for Florida!  So thankful.

Isn't it so strange that in one season of life you can be both terrified and safe?  He is the only one I know who can provide that.  I mean seriously!  Terrified and safe... all in one beautiful little package.

*I'm waiting on pictures from the Seder and once those are in my position I will most certainly blog about our wonderful dinner.  And it was wonderful*