When the Israelites were wandering in the desert hopeless, bitter, unsure of where they were or where they were going, remembering their past days in slavery recalling them as "pleasant or at least better than where they were now", or panicking about how their basic food needs were going to be met they were provided with manna. (Exodus states that raw manna tasted like wafers that had been made with honey.) The Israelites were instructed to take only the amount of manna they needed for that day. If they took more than allowed, with the exception of preparation day which was before the Sabbath, it would spoil and be unusable. Am I being satisfied with today's manna? The Lord gives me exactly what I need to get through today. When I sit with Him or I'm being present in today I am satisfied. I am not worrying about will there be enough for tomorrow? I'm not even thinking about tomorrow. But when I do panic and start to get ahead of myself I start to store up what was given to me for that day... I become unsatisfied because I've kept something for tomorrow, just in case. Then what I've got stored up for tomorrow is all wrong for that day and is spoiled and gross.
Last week I did a great job at being present. In the moment, in the day, and not worrying about what tomorrow may or may not look like. Last night however I blew it. I got all worked into a tizzy trying to plan next year, trying to plan the upcoming month, trying to get my ducks in a row. While thinking ahead isn't a bad thing in and of itself it is bad when I try to store up because I am not 100% certain that Christ will be faithful for a new day. Wow did I really just admit to that? It is true whether or not I verbally speak it my need to store up says I do not trust Him for tomorrow.
I want to be present. I want to be aware. I want to be satisfied fully each day knowing and trusting that tomorrow the manna will fall and I will have enough again.
Manna: A daily provision of our needs, enough to be satisfied fully.
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