Staying up late for a date...

Yes please!  You know how you know when you've got a crush? You stay up late, get up early, the clock seems to be insignificant, hours are unaccounted for.

So what am I doing? Staying up late for a date...

If you have spent any significant time with me/even a few short hours you probably know that I like to date.  Now before you judge me I traded in my little black book about 6 years ago, much to my grandmother's disappointment, for one guy.  (Literally date-less by worldly abacus' for 6 years) We have spent countless hours laughing, a lot crying, and mostly just sitting and really enjoying getting to know each other.  I like the pressure-less conversation, He already knows everything about me He is just waiting for me to say it out loud.  I however could spend and WILL spend forever uncovering all that I can about Him and still barely scratch the surface of His greatness/vastness. Are the playing fields uneven?  Absolutely but I'm okay with that, most days.


Tonight I called my dear friend Bethany to tell her, what I had been anxiously awaiting, totally casual and not expecting,  something arrived.  Luckily my wise friend spoke truth immediately! She allowed me a short but sweet over analyzing moment and then moved straight to truth. Simple really.  Take the praises of man and find scripture that says it is true and dwell on that.  Let my praise then come from Christ instead of people.  He is truthfully the only one that can fill my cup.  So I hit the book! (I regretted that corny geeky phrase the moment I typed it but for authenticity I will leave it.)

Here is the thing I know the Lord has asked something of me I'm not 100% on board with, I'm only really okay with it 8 out of 10 times I think about it, but I'm getting there ... Friday it was 1.5 out of 10 so that is a fast curve.

I'm learning to open hand hold EVERYTHING... well except a few things:

• He is literally BREATHLESS because He finds me so beautiful! (Eesh I gush every time. That in and of itself has changed this girl!)
•  I AM: Chosen. Adopted.  Loved. Blessed. Redeemed. Forgiven!!!!!
• satan loses!
• HE WINS. The End.

"You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory.  Whom have I in heaven but you? And there is NOTHING on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail. but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:24-26