This was my second year of WT, my class was Pastoral Counseling, Intro to Family Systems. I had no idea of what to expect from this class. I knew going in that my family was dysfunctional so I wasn't really expecting to learn that. I didn't! Instead I learned that the roles I filled as a child out of survival and necessity I was still operating out of today. Without pouring out our family history (I'll save your eyes from the craziness of it all). I learned some significant patterns that I now have the awareness and ability to break.
1) I do not ask for help well or at all.
2) My anger shows up as sadness, I never learned how to express anger.
3) I never offer myself grace.
4) I operate out of the fear of abandonment. - def a people pleaser!!!!
We had to do our six word autobiography, really hard! At the beginning of the week these were the ones I came up with.
1. Rocky start, determined to finish first.
2. Funny girl! Laughter covered my pain.
3. Feel forgotten, seriously where is he!?!?!?
4. Free spirited but can't stop roaming.
(after the week in class)
1. Did not remain on repeat button.
2. Confident that I wasn't looked over!!!
3. Knew I was wanted and loved!
As always asked: practically how will you apply these things... still pouring over my notes and laying these things at the feet of Christ who will over time speak into each of them and offer me the perfect plan to change them.
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