So nervous I could vomit... word vomit that is

Gross title but word vomiting is what I'm famous for so lets not deny it. There are about 30 minutes before I need to leave to get to YoungLives lunch on time and I'm going stir crazy. Last night/this morning I woke up at 2am in a panic that I had overslept and missed lunch. Then I started thinking about all the things that could go wrong or that may or may not happen. I don't advise getting into a "what if" game at 2am, not very productive.

I know full well that if zero girls come to lunch that I'll be okay. I also know that if zero girls come to lunch God's name will still be glorified by us just being there and by the mere fact that HE IS GOD! ha However the little self doubter human girl named Adrienne can't help but wonder if they will walk by the room and go oh my she looks like a geek no way! Or maybe they are like me when I hear about a single woman's meeting I immediately mock it and say I'm good. Or they could just want to hang out with their friends at lunch, go figure! haha

They may! Let's be honest with ourselves they may actually say all of those things. However my obedience to what Christ has called me is all that matters. My fears, my anxieties can be there but they will not stop me from knowing that I am right where I'm supposed to be. There is a reason why I am fearful, uncomfortable, nervous, excited, overwhelmed, unsure.... because that is exactly what satan wants. This far.... God has not left me and this far.... he has shown me I am in the exact spot He wants me so whatever happens today---

I can finish the day saying " I AM FAITHFUL" and I know I will hear Him say " ME TOO!"