Lamentations... Random I know.

The other night I was laying in bed reading Lamentations, craving it- it was so odd. I don't know why but I couldn't stop reading and writing about it. Strange. Currently in my new bible Lamentations is completely marked up with questions, comments, ties to other scripture... it looks like I ate the thing lol.

While all of Lamentations as I told my lovely Melissa is about Lamenting (lol that just is obvious) there is a glimmer of hope in there. It sneaks in there middle of Chapter three and only lasts about 20 verses. Much like my prayer life, sadly! Most of prayer life is me lamenting, complaining, and then offering about 20 seconds for hope and praise. I'm so human!

Three verses though, non hope verses, were what God drew my heart to. I poured over the chapters, and loved seeing ties to the Gospels and to the Christ to come. However I kept thinking about these verses so I finally cracked and journaled and meditated on where I fit into these and what God was calling my attention to. I'm not 100% sure. Here is what I've got... PLEASE COMMENT AND ADD YOUR THOUGHTS AS WELL!!!!!

Chapter 1:8-9 Jerusalem has sinned greatly and so has become unclean. All who honored her despise her, for they have seen her nakedness; she herself groans and turns away. Her filthiness clung to her skits; she did not consider her future. Her fall was astounding; there was none to comfort her. "Look, O LORD, on my affliction, for the enemy has triumphed."

My past isn't spotless actually I'd say it is quite the opposite spot filled so much so the spots have all blended together :) Praise the Lord He drew me out. This is talking about the fall AFTER the faith, how it came come to those who the Lord has saved. Her fall was astounding... shocking, large, from high, so much so that everyone who honored her respected her. If you don't think that this faith is a battle just look at Jerusalem's fall. Her sin was revealed, but not only that she wore it around, carried it everywhere on her skirt, and she kept putting that skirt back on. How often do we do this? Keep putting the same thing back on when all we had to do was take it off and leave it behind. I say all we had to do, which sounds way more easy than it is. She didn't think to the future, she had no hope and no faith that Christ would deliver so she kept carrying that sin around with her.

Chapter 4:17 Moreover, our eyes failed, looking in vain for help; from our towers we watched for a nation that COULD NOT SAVE US.

Then she waited and stared off into the distance for so long and intently that her eyes failed. She sat by her window waiting for a nation that she knew could not save her. Yet she sat there waiting and straining desiring for something that would never happen. That is me waiting and looking out my window waiting for that something to save me from whatever circumstance I'm in, straining to see it coming from off in the distance not realizing Christ is sitting beside me going hey what are we looking at? and I'm like shhhhh we're waiting! Waiting for a nation that could NOT save us!!!!!